第四章枪伤与心痕
tangxiaoxiaozuozaishuzhuangtaiqian，zhijianfuguojingzhongzijidesuogu。neilidexuehenzaoyitunqu，quexiangluoyinbankezaipifushang，meicitaishoudounengxiangqiguchengyuanranxuedezhijianhuaguodezhuoregan。
shuzhuangtaishangfangzheyijianheisechenshan，shiguchengyuanzuotianhuanxiade，xiukouhaizhanzheganhedeanhongxueji。tabengaiyanezheizhongdaizhexuexingweidewujian，queguishishenchadijiangtaxiganjing，liangzaiyangtaishi，jingduizheneijianchenshanfalebanxiaoshidedai。
“在想什么？”
binglengdeshengyinzishenhouxiangqi，tangxiaoxiaoxiangbeitangdaobanshouhuishou，zhuanshenkanjianguchengyuanzhanzaimenkou。tahuanlejianxindeheisechenshan，xiukouwandaoxiaobei，luchuchanzhebengdaideshoubei，yanshenchenchendikanzheta，yousaoguoshuzhuangtaishangdechenshan，yandishanguoyisibuyichajuedebodong。
“meishenme。”tangxiaoxiaobieguolian，xinzangquebuzhengqidikuangtiao，“wenjingranshuodeshizhendema？wobazhendedayingbawojiajita？”
guchengyuanzouguolai，zaitashenhouzhanding，liangrendeyingzizaijingzhongzhongdie。tadehuxifuguotadeerpan，daizheqingliedexuesongxiang：“nixiangjiama？”
“wobuxiang。”tangxiaoxiaodeshengyinhenqing，queyichangjianding，“danwobadepiqinizhidao，tajuedingdeshi，hennangaibian。”
“youwozai，tagaibianbule。”guchengyuandezhijianqingqingluozaitadefajian，dongzuodaizheyizhongjinhuqianchengdexiaoxinyiyi，“tangxiaoxiao，jizhuwozuotianshuodehua——nizhinengshiwode。”
jingzhongdetayanshenpianzhi，xiangyitoushouhulingdidelang。tangxiaoxiaokanzhejingzhongjiaochandeyingzi，turanjuedezheizhongbeijingudeganjue，jingmeineimetaoyanle。kexiayimiao，shinianqianneichangdahuodehuamianturancuanjinnaohai——nongyanzhongneigemohudebeiying，heyanqianzheigenanrendecelianzhongdiezaiyiqi，rangtaxintouyijin。
“shinianqian，”tamengdikaikou，shengyindaizheyisizhandou，“niweishenmehuichuxianzaitangzhai？nidaodishisheidehaizi？”
guchengyuandedongzuoshunjianjiangzhu，jingzhongtadelianseshunjianbiandecangbai。tamengdizhuanshen，zuanzhutadeshouwan，lidaodadejihuyaoniesuitadegutou：“biewen！”
“wopianyaowen！”tangxiaoxiaozhengtuobukai，zhinengyingzhetademuguang，yandimanshijueqiang，“nishibushizaojiurenshiwo？neichangdahuoshibushiheniyouguan？nijiejinwo，daodishiweileshuzui，haishiweilebiedeshenme？”
“goule！”guchengyuandihouyisheng，yanshenlifanyongzhetongkuhefennu，“niyiweiwoxianghuiyineixieshima？niyiweibeihuozhuoshaodeziweihenhaoshouma？”
tadeshengyindaizheyizhongjinhubengkuideshaya，tangxiaoxiaobeitayanzhongdetongkuzhenshezhu，yishijianwanglezhengzha。
guchengyuanshenxiyikouqi，huanhuansongkaitadeshouwan，zhifumosuozhetawanshangdehonghen，yuqihuifulebingleng，quedaizheyisipibei：“youxieshi，zhidaoleduinimeihaochu。”
“duiwomeihaochu，haishiduinimeihaochu？”tangxiaoxiaofanwen，kanzhetayandideshanduo，xinyidiandianchenxiaqu，“guchengyuan，nidaodihaiyouduoshaomimimanzhewo？”
jiuzaizheishi，shenchedeshengyinzaimenwaixiangqi：“yuange，wenjingranzailouxia，shuoyaojiexiaoxiao**qukandinghunchangdi。”
dinghunchangdi？tangxiaoxiaodexinmengdiyichen。fuqinguorandongzhengedele。
guchengyuandelianseshunjianbiandetieqing，zhuanshenjiuwangwaizou：“woqujiejueta。”
“dengdeng。”tangxiaoxiaojiaozhuta，“wogenniyiqiqu。”
tabunengzaiduozaitashenhoule。youxieshi，bixuqinzimiandui。
louxiaketing，wenjingranzuozaishafashang，shoulibawanzheyimeizuanjie，kandaotangxiaoxiaoxialai，likezhanqishen，luchuwenrundexiao：“xiaoxiao，nizhunbeihaolema？shejishishuojintianbixuquedingchangdixijie。”
tademuguangluozaitangxiaoxiaoshenhoudeguchengyuanshenshang，xiaorongbubian，yandiquelveguoyisilengyi：“guxianshengyeyiqiqu？yehao，zhenghaobangwomencankaocankao。”
“bubile。”guchengyuandangzaitangxiaoxiaomianqian，xiangyidumibutoufengdeqiang，“tabuhuiqude。”
“e？”wenjingrantiaomei，“guxianshengzheishizaitixiaoxiaozuojueding？haishishuo，nixiangweikangtangshushudeyisi？”
“wozhitingtadeyisi。”guchengyuandemuguangluozaitangxiaoxiaolianshang，daizheyisibuyichajuedejinzhang。
tangxiaoxiaokanzhewenjingranshouzhongdezuanjie，youkanlekanguchengyuanjinbengdecelian，turanxiaole：“wendage，wogenniqu。”
guchengyuanmengdihuitou，yanshenlimanshicuoeheshoushang：“tangxiaoxiao！”
“guxianshengbieshengqi。”tangxiaoxiaobikaitademuguang，yuqipingdan，“bijingshiwobadeyisi，wozongbunengyizhiweikang。”
taxuyaozhidaofuqindaodixiangzuoshenme，yexuyaonongqingchuwenjingrandezhenzhengmude。gengzhongyaodeshi，taxiangkankanguchengyuandefanying——tahuibuhuizhendexiangtashuodeneiyang，buguyiqiedizuzhi。
wenjingrandexiaoronggengshenle：“haishixiaoxiaodongshi。”
guchengyuandequantousisizuanjin，zhijiefanbai，yandifanyongzhetakanbudongdeqingxu，youfennu，youshiwang，haiyouyisi……juewang。takanzheta，yiziyijudishuo：“nihuihouhuide。”
“yexuba。”tangxiaoxiaobieguolian，bugankantadeyanjing。tapazijikandaotayandidetongku，huirenbuzhudongyao。
zuojinwenjingrandecheshi，tangxiaoxiaotouguochechuang，kanjianguchengyuanzhanzaimenkou，xiangyizunmeiyoulinghundediaosu。yangguangluozaitashenshang，quezhaobujintayandideheian。tadexinzangxiangshibeishenmedongxihenhenzuanzhu，tengdechuanbuguoqi。
“qishi，”wenjingrandeshengyindapolechenmo，“wozhidaonibuxiangjiajiwo。”
tangxiaoxiaozhuanguotou，kanzheta：“neiniweishenmehaiyaobiwo？”
“yinweiwoxiangbaohuni。”wenjingrandeyuqituranbianderenzhen，“guchengyuanbushininengjiayuderen，tadeshijietaiweixian，nigenzheta，zhihuibeishaochenghuijin。”
“shinianqian，niyezaihuochangfujin，duima？”tangxiaoxiaoturanwen，“nidaodikandaoleshenme？”
wenjingrandelianseshunjianbiandecangbai，xiangshibeichuozhongletongchu：“wo……woshenmedoumeikandao。”
tazaisahuang。tangxiaoxiaogengjiaqueding，shinianqiandehuozaiyidingzangzhebuweirenzhidemimi，erzheigemimi，henkenengheguchengyuan、wenjingran，shenzhitadefuqindouyouguan。
dinghunchangdixuanzaiyijiagaodangjiudiandedinglou，shiyekaikuo，keyifukanzhenggechengshidefengjing。shejishizhengzaijieshaochangdibuzhi，tangxiaoxiaoquexinbuzaiyan，muguangyizhiluozaishoujishang——guchengyuanmeiyoujitafaxinxi，yemeiyoudadianhua，tajiuxiangpingkongxiaoshileyiyang。
tashibushizhendeshengqile？shibushizhendefangqile？
zheigeniantougangmaochulai，jiubeitaqiangxingyaxiaqu。tashizaishitanta，bushizaiqidaitadewanliu。
jiuzaizheishi，wenjingranturanwozhutadeshou，yuqiwenrou：“xiaoxiao，qishiwomenkeyishishide。wohuiduinihao，huibaohuni，buhuirangnishoudaorenheshanghai。”
tadeshouhennuan，querangtangxiaoxiaojuedeexin。tamengdichouhuishou，houtuibanbu：“wenjingran，bieyanxile。nijiejinwo，daodishiweiletangshi，haishiweilebiedeshenme？”
wenjingrandexiaorongjiangzailianshang，yandishanguoyisiyinhen：“kanlai，guchengyuanbashenmedougaosunile。”
“tashenmedoumeishuo。”tangxiaoxiaolengxiao，“shinizijiluchulemajiao。shinianqiandehuozai，weimingzhe，haiyoumatoudeshi……nidoucanyule，duibudui？”
wenjingranturanxiaole，xiaoshenglidaizheyizhongjinhufengkuangdechaonong：“jirannidouzhidaole，neiwoyebumannile。tangxiaoxiao，niyiweiguchengyuanshihaorenma？tadangniankeshinazheqian，qinshoufangdehuo！”
“nihushuo！”tangxiaoxiaodeshengyinfazhan，tabuxiangxin，neigebataconghuolijiuchulaidenanhai，zenmekenengfanghuo？
“wohushuo？”wenjingrannachushouji，diankaiyiduanluyin，“nizijitingting。”
luyinlichuanlaiguchengyuanbinglengdeshengyin，jiazazhehuoyanranshaodepipasheng：“qianwonadaole，huoyijingfangle……”
tangxiaoxiaodedanaoyipiankongbai，fangfobeirenhenhendaleyiquan。zenmehuizheiyang？guchengyuanzhendeshifanghuoderen？neitaweishenmehaiyaojiuta？
“henjingyaba？”wenjingranzoudaotamianqian，yuqideyi，“tajiushigeweileqianshenmedouzuodechulaideemo。shinianqiantanengfanghuo，xianzaijiunengweilededaoni，zuochugengkepadeshi。”
tangxiaoxiaokanzheluyinlideguchengyuan，youxiangqitaxiongkoudeqianghen，xiangqitashuoguode“wodemingzaojiuwenzaileqiangkouduizhunxinzangdeweizhi”，xinzangxiangshibeisiliebanteng。
tajiuleta，queyeshifanghuoderen？zheidaodishizenmehuishi？
jiuzaizheishi，jiudiandexiaofangjingbaoturanxiangqi，hongdengshanshuo，cierdeshengyinrangrentoupifama。
“zenmehuishi？”tangxiaoxiaoxiayishidihoutui。
wenjingrandelianshangluchuguiyidexiaorong：“meishenme，zhishixiangrangnikankan，guchengyuandaodiyouduozaihuni。”
tahuayingangluo，jiudiandemenjiubeimengdichuaikai，guchengyuanchonglejinlai，shenshanghaizhanzhehuichen，yanshenjiaojidizairenqunzhongxunzhao：“tangxiaoxiao！”
dangtakandaotangxiaoxiaoshi，yanjingshunjianliangleqilai，kuaibupaodaotamianqian，shangxiadaliangzheta：“nimeishiba？”
“womeishi。”tangxiaoxiaokanzheta，shengyinfazhan，“luyinlidehua，shizhendema？shinianqiandehuo，shinifangde？”
guchengyuandelianseshunjianbiandecangbai，yanshenlimanshitongkuhezhengzha：“xiaoxiao，nitingwojieshi……”
“jieshishenme？jieshiniweileqianfanghuo，haishijieshinijiaxingxingdijiulewo？”tangxiaoxiaodeyanleiyonglechulai，shengyindaizheyisijuewang，“guchengyuan，nidaodibawodangshenme？wanwuma？”
“bushide！”guchengyuanzhuazhutadeshou，yuqijiqie，“dangniandeshibushinixiangdeneiyang，woshibeixiepode！wojiuni，shizhenxinde！”
“zhenxin？”tangxiaoxiaoshuaikaitadeshou，houtuibanbu，“nidezhenxinjiushiyibianfanghuo，yibianjiuwo？nidezhenxinjiushibawokunzaishenbian，rangwochengweinidesuoyouwu？”
tadehuaxiangyibadao，henhencijinguchengyuandexinzang。takanzhetaleiliumanmiandeyangzi，kanzhetayandideshiwangheyane，turanjuedexiongkoudeqianghenyoukaishitengle。
“xiaoxiao，xiangxinwo，zaijiwoyidianshijian，wohuibayiqiedougaosuni。”tadeshengyindaizheyisikenqiu，zheishitangxiaoxiaodiyicizaitayanlikandaozheiyangdeqingxu。
jiuzaizheishi，wenjingranturanconghuailitaochuqiang，duizhunleguchengyuan：“bieyanxile，guchengyuan。jintian，wojiurangtakankannidezhenmianmu。”
“xiaoxin！”tangxiaoxiaoxiangyemeixiang，pudaoguchengyuanmianqian。
“砰！”
qiangshengxiangqi，zidancaguotangxiaoxiaodeshoubei，dazaiguchengyuandexiongkou。
“guchengyuan！”tangxiaoxiaokanzhetaxiongkoushenchudexianxue，shengyinqili。
guchengyuanmenhengyisheng，quesisizhuazhutadeshou，yanshenjianding：“womeishi……”
tafanshouduoguowenjingrandeqiang，yiquanzazaitalianshang，dongzuokuaidexiangfeng。wenjingranbeidadaozaidi，guchengyuanyongqiangzhizhetadetou，yanshenlengdexiangbing：“nigandongta，woshaleni。”
tadexiongkouhaizailiuxue，ranhonglebaisedechenshan，xiangyiduozhanfangdehongmei。tangxiaoxiaokanzheta，turanxiangqitaxiongkoudeqianghen，xiangqitashuoguode“wodemingzaojiuwenzaileqiangkouduizhunxinzangdeweizhi”。
yuanlai，tashuodeshizhende。tademing，zhendesuishikenengbeiqiangkouduizhun。
“guchengyuan，nideshang……”tangxiaoxiaodeshengyindaizheyisizhandou。
“meishi。”guchengyuankanzheta，yanshenwenrou，“woshuoguo，wobuhuirangniyoushide。”
tademuguangluozaitashoubeideshangkoushang，yanshenshunjianbiandebingleng，kanxiangdishangdewenjingran：“nishangleta，wohuirangnifuchudaijia。”
jiuzaizheishi，shenchehemosenchonglejinlai，anzhulewenjingran。
“yuange，kuaizou，jingchalaile。”shenchekanzheguchengyuandeshangkou，yuqijiaoji。
guchengyuandiandiantou，kanxiangtangxiaoxiao：“genwozou。”
tangxiaoxiaokanzhetaxiongkoudexianxue，youxiangqiluyinlidehua，xinlimaodunjile。tahentadeqipian，hentakenengshifanghuoderen，kekandaotaweilebaohutaershoushang，xinzangquexiangbeisiliebanteng。
zuizhong，tahaishigenzhetazoule。
zuojincheli，guchengyuandelianseyuelaiyuecangbai，huxiyebiandejicu。tangxiaoxiaokanzhetaxiongkoudexueji，zhongyurenbuzhukaikou：“weishenmebujieshi？luyinlidehua，daodishizenmehuishi？”
guchengyuankanzheta，yanshenlimanshitongku：“xiaoxiao，youxieshi，wopanizhidaole，huichedihenwo。”
“woxianzaijiuhenhenni。”tangxiaoxiaodeshengyindaizheyisigengyan，“danwogengxiangzhidaozhenxiang。”
guchengyuanchenmolehenjiu，zhongyuhuanhuankaikou，shengyinshayadexiangbeishazhimoguo：“shinianqian，wofuqinqianleweimingzheyidabiqian，tayongwodemingweixiewo，rangwoqutangzhaifanghuo。womeibanfa，zhinengzhaozuo。”
“danwomeixiangdaohuiyudaoni。kandaonideneiyike，wojiuhouhuile。wobunengrangnisi，suoyiwojiuleni。”
“weimingzhezhidaohou，henshengqi，tabawozhuazou，zaiwoxiongkouwenleqianghen，gaosuwo，wodemingcongciyihoujiushuyutale。”
“zheixienian，woyizhizaitashouxiazuoshi，renrufuzhong，jiushiweileyouyitiannengbaochou，nengzhaodaoni，baohuni。”
“xiaoxiao，duibuqi，wopianleni。danwoduinideganqing，shizhende。”
tangxiaoxiaokanzheta，yanleiliudegengxiongle。yuanlaishiqingshizheiyangde。tabushiweileqianfanghuo，ershibeixiepode。tajiuta，shizhenxinde。
kejiusuanzhidaolezhenxiang，taxinlidegedahaishijiebukai。tafanglehuo，zheishishishi。tashanghailebieren，zheiyeshishishi。
“guchengyuan，”takanzheta，shengyindaizheyisipibei，“women……douxuyaolengjingyixia。”
guchengyuandeyanshenanlexiaqu，xiangbeiximiedehuoyan。tadiandiantou，shengyinshaya：“hao。”
chezizaitangzhaimenkoutingxia，guchengyuanmeiyouxiache，zhishikanzheta：“shangquba。shenchehemosenhuishouzhe，buhuirangrenherenshanghaini。”
tangxiaoxiaodiandiantou，tuikaichemen。gangzouleliangbu，tayouhuiguotou：“nideshang……”
“sibule。”guchengyuandeyuqihuifuleguanchangdelengying，keyandiqueshanguoyisiwenrou，“zhaoguhaoziji。”
tangxiaoxiaokanzheta，zuizhonghaishizhuanshenzoujinletangzhai。
huidaofangjian，takanzheshoubeishangdeshangkou，youxiangqiguchengyuanxiongkoudexueji，xinzangxiangshibeishenmedongxiduzhule。
tahenta，hentafanghuo，hentaqipian。ketayexintengta，xintengtabeixiepo，xintengtaduzichengshouleneimeduotongku。
zheichangyiaiweimingdegongfangzhan，daodishenmeshihoucainengjieshu？
erzaicheli，guchengyuankanzhetangzhaidedengguang，xiongkoudeshangkouyuelaiyueteng，ketaqueganjuebudao。tazhijuedexinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouzuanjin，tengdetajihuwufahuxi。
tazhidao，tangxiaoxiaoxinlidegedameineimerongyijiekai。dantabuhuifangqi。
xiaomeigui，jiusuannihenwo，woyebuhuirangnilikaiwo。
zheichangyouxi，zhiyaowohaihuozhe，jiuyongyuanbuhuijieshu。
tanachushouji，botongleyigehaoma，yuqibingleng：“weimingzhe，youxikaishile。”
dianhuaneitouchuanlaiweimingzheyinlengdexiaosheng：“zaojiudengnizheijuhuale，guchengyuan。”
chuangwaideyueguangtouguobolisajinlai，zhaoliangleguchengyuanyandidepianzhihefengkuang。zheichangkuayueshiniandeenyuan，zhongyuyaoyinglaizuihoudeduijue。ertahetangxiaoxiaozhijiandeaihenjiuge，yecaiganggangkaishi。