tacongmimihuhuzhongxingguolai，kanjiandeshibaisedewenzhang，toushangyinyinzuotong，buzhidaozheishizaizenyangdehuanjingli，yushibishangyanjingxianglehenjiu，caiweiweitanlekouqi。
没有死。
neime，zijixianzaishizaibeiruanjinzhe？
xiankaibeizizuoqilai，dayueshihunmilehenjiu，yushentizhijianhaiwufahenhaodexiediao，ditoukankan，yifudeyangshiguailiguaiqide，buliaoyehencha，zhidaozhanqizaifangjiandedibanshang，caifaxiangengduowufaxiediaodedongxi。
laoshidefangwu、laoshidechuang、zhuoyibandeng，suiranyongliaohezuogongdoubucuo，danzhenggefangjiandoushifanggudebaishe，yeyoukanqilaihenbangdeciqi，danrenhexiandaihuadedianzishebeidoubucunzaile。nigaoshenme，tangmingyuan？xiangqineidaiyanjingdejiahuo，xinzhonganmaleyiju，suihou……
zheizhishouyebianle，zijideshou……buxiangshizijide。
takanlekanliangzhixiandecangbaideshou，pianke，caizaizhuoyiqianzuoxia，jiekaishenshangdeyifu，zheijushenti……meiyoudankong。kaishenmewanxiao？zijimingmingjideneimeduozidanduizhezijisheguolaide，qianqianhouhoudouyoua，nanbuchengshizuolezhengxingshoushu？budui，zheijushentidoubushizijide，suoyoudetezhengdouzaibiaoxianchuzheigejixiang，tebieshizaitazhaoletongjingzhihou，kanjianjingzilideneigeyingxiang，jiunenggengjiaquerenzheiyidian。
tangmingyuannizaigaoshenmedongxi？tacengjingshishijieshangzuiyoujingjishiliderenzhiyi，nenggoubaishouqijiadaoneigedibu，ziranbuhuiyinweiyixiexiaoyihuobeidadao，xiandaikejidezhichixia，zhiparenhekenengxingdoushicunzaide，gaibianlezijideshenti，dafanweidechechedididezhengxingma？youshenmebiyao？mudeshishenme？xiangrangtachengrenzijishilingyigeren，ranhoubuzaiyutazheng？zheijiahuoxianglaiyourouguaduan，weilebaozijiyimingzuochuzheiyangdeshiqingyebushibukeneng，danweishenmeyaoanpaiyigezheiyangdefangjian？
toushangchanzhebengdai，haiyinyinyouxietong，tatuikaifangmen，mingmeideyangguangbianshelejinlai，lingtaxiayishidishenshouzhedangleyixia，zheishimuzhiloufangdeerloushang，congmenkoukanchuqu，xiafang、yuanyuanjinjinshiyigegelincizhibideyuanluoyuyuanlin，fenbudegezhongloufang，suhangfenggedeyuanlinjianzhu、chitangyushanshi，meilunmeihuandizaiyanqianyanshenkaiqu。
meiyougaoloudasha，kanbujianrenhexiandaitezheng。
taxileyikouqi，suihoutuchulai。dashoubia，tangmingyuanninongzheigedehuaduoshaoqiancaixing？takanlejiyan，zhuanshenchaoyibianzou，lijibianyouyigeshengyinxiangqilai：“guyeni……”wo，qunzhongyanyuan。
tazheishihouxinqingbuhao，yemeishenmexingqugenzheixierenduozuojiuchan，qianfangneipiaoliangyatouzouguolaishi，tapiaoleyiyan，zhijieshenchushouzhilezhi。yiqianshiyilijianliqineibanpangdajinrongdiguodezhangquanzhe，yidantazhendebiaoxianchuneiguqishi，zhishiyigeyanshenyigedongzuo，zheiyahuandabandenvrenlijishiyigejiling，zhanzaileyuandi，nanashuodao：“guye，nixinglaile……”
tacongzheiyahuanshenbianzouguoqu，guolejibu，caiyouzhuanhuilai，youxiebeilandinaqileyahuanshoushangnazhedesihushijitachuandepaozi，zhankaizhihou，youxieyumen：“zheidongxizenmechuan？”xiangxiangyahuanshuodesihushijiangzheyidaidefangyan，bianyouhuanshangfangyan：“zheizenmechuan？”
“gu、guye，wobangni……”neiyahuanlianmangkaishititachuanneipaozi，liangzhiyanjingyihuodidaliangta。ze，yanjibucuo……yibianchuan，neiyahuanhaichaoxiafanghanzhe：“guyexinglaile，guyexinglaile……”yushi，gengduoderen，kaishiconggegeyuanziliguolaile。
chuanshangpaozi，tafenkaiyixieguolaideyahuanxiaozi，chuanguoleyuanzi，touyebuhuidichaowaimianzouqu。
zuihou……haishibeilanhuilaile……
shitianzhihou，tazuozaizoulangshangkanzhewaimiantiankongzhongdeyanhua，tanlekouqi。
houlaihaishizouchuqule，ruodadechengshi，zhaobudaorenhexiandaihuadehenji，renhejianzhu、renheren，waimiandeshanzehubodougaosutazheishizaigudai，bukenengbushi，jiuquanrangtaqingjinzhenggejinrongdiguodeliliang，yezuobuchuzheimetianyiwufengdeshijie，danshizheimeduodeyanyuan，jiubukenengzuodaozheimewanmei，zheibushichumendeshijie，tayebushicongchushengyilaijiubeiguanzaisheyingpenglidechumen。
duiyuxianzaideshenfenyedagaiqingchule，tajiaoningyi，ziliheng，muqianshijiangningfushangsujiadeyimingshangmennvxu，shuoqilaizheigeshenfenyoudianbuguangcai，danjiranshile，yemeiyoubanfa，erjibianshiruzhui，qizhongdeqingkuang，zheijitiankanqilai，yeshizaiyouxiefuza。
sujiashijiangningyoumingdefushangzhiyi，rujinzhizhangsujiadedafangsuboyongxixiawuzi，zhiyouyigenvermingjiaosutaner，duiyuzijidezheigeqizi，tamuqianhaimeiyoukanjianguo，jushuojiehunneitiansujiayouyipibuliaochulewenti，sutanerpaoqujiejue，jiandanlaishuo，kandechutaduizheichanghunyindeburentong，suanshitaohunle。
zhiyuziji，yejiushiningyi，jushuoyeyeneibeiyurujinsujiataigongdeguanxihentie，shuohaozhifuweihunsheizhidaoshengchulaidoushinande，yushizhifuweihundeyuedingchuanxialai，ningyidejialiqueyinweiyiwaimeiluole，daoleningyi，fumushuangwang，tasuirandulexieshu，shuoqilaishigewenren，danshijishangdecaixuepayemeishenme，jiushirenlaoshi，beisutaigongkanshangdangchengleshangmennvxu，ningyidangchushibushiyuanyi，shibushibeiqiangpodetaxianzaishiwufazhuisule，zhishiduitaruzhuidezheijianshisihuyeyouhaoxierenbuyuanyi，jiehunneitian，xinniangpaole，hunliyebeiyaoqiujixujinxing，ranhou，jushuoshiyiweiyeduisutaneryouxingqudefujiazidianzhongqiaoletayibanzhuan，rangtahunmilehaojitiancaixingguolai。
zheijitiantazhuangchengbeibanzhuanqiaoleyouxiemihudeyangzijianguolexuduosujiaren，sutaigongyejianleyici，qingkuangfuza，danzaitalaishuo，yeshiyiyanjiukanlechulai。sutaigongdeshentihenhao，rujinyeshisujiazhenzhengdezhangquanzhe，doushuosandaikanchisidaikanchuanwudaikanwenzhang，rujinsujiadaosutaneryutadejigexiongdiyesuanfudaodiwudai，danqingkuangmingxianliangyoubuqi，zuizhengqideyujingshangzuiyoutianfude，fandaoshizuoweinvershendesutaner。
ruguoneixiedageergezhileidelihaiyidian，ruguosutanerbushidafangdenver，ruguosutanermeiyoujingshangdetianfuhexinqing，huoxuyiqieqingkuangjiuhuibuyiyang，danxianzai，sujiataigongmingxianshijiangsutanerdangchenglejiebanrenlaipeiyang，zhisuoyixuanzezijizheiyangdeyigeshangmennvxu，huozheyoujifenshangdaiqingyizaiqizhong，danzuizhuyaode，kongpahaishikanzhunyiqiandeningyigoulaoshi，bierenqingeryijujiunengyadezhu。
yeshiyinci，tazheigeshangmennvxudediwei，qiyujifangziranshibugaoxingde，zheixierenyiqianjiurezhongyujisutanerjieshaoduixiang，zhixiwangmougefujiagongziquzoutarangtachenglepochuqudeshui，jiuduizheigejiatingshenmeweixiedoumeiyou，sheizhidaosutaigongzhuazhuyigezhifuweihundeyuedingqiangxingzhaolegeshangmennvxuguolai，taziranjiuchenglepangrendeyanzhongding，neitianwanshangbeiqiaodeyibanzhuan，shibushipangrenzuode，pahaishinanshuodejin。
想起上辈子的事情。
shangchanganzhan，gouxindoujiao，taneiyibeizideshijiansihudouyongzailezheixieshiqingshangmian，zhidaojianliqijudadeshangyediguo，quehaishidifangzheneidou，danzuihouhaishibeizijidexiongdibaileyidao，gandiaole。rujinzaikanjianzheixieshiqing，buyoudejiujuedehaoxiao，zhendeshibuxiangzaijiechuzheixiedongxilea，hekuanghaishizheiyangdexiaodaxiaonao……
nongqingchugainongqingdeshiqing，zandianyinzi，jiulikaiba，tazheiyangxiangzhe，suiranduimuqiandetalaishuoduiyudangshangmennvxuyemeishenmegainian，buzenmezaiyizheizhongmingfenshangdeshiqing，danshikebeirendingzhe，sihuyeyouxiebushuang。
zhiyuzheigeshijie，tamuqianhaiyouxienongbuqingchu。
jiangning，songchaodeshihoujiangnanjingjiaozheigemingzi，danzheiyoubushisongchao，zheijitianlaizuilingtayihuodejiushilishiwenti，suojiandeshishuduiyulishidejizaiyuweilaideshijiesihuzongyouxiechuru，rujindezheigechaodaijiaozuowu，runansongyibandingdoulinan，yixielishixijiesihuzaisuichaozuoyoujiukaishibianhua，daoletangchaoyijingyoudadechuru，tangchaozhihoudezhuhouhunzhan，yuwudaishiguoleisidegejujiezhejiuyouwu，duoleyixiemingrenyuliuchuandeshici，yeshaoleyixie，pirulibai，xielexiehaoshi，beirenchengzuoshixian，danshinianqingdeshihoujiuzaizhangangenrenbijiansidiaole，dufudangleguan，yinweitaiyufubanzaleshiqingbeihuangdikanletou——zheishiqinghaishitahaoburongyizhaodaode，jiuzaishishushangliuleyixiaobi。
zheigesuanshishenmeshia？liangzilixue？duozhongyuzhou？
zheiyangxiangzhe，buyoudejuedehenshenqi。
wuchaoyusongchaoleisi，xiangdangfanhua，danshuobudingyehuixiangsongchaoneiyangbeishaoshuminzuzhengfu，shuzhidelishiyijingwanquanluanle，tayelandequxiangzheixie，rujinyaozuodejiushishoulianyiqie，duishijieshuxizhihoujiucongzheigedajiazuzhongshanren，ranhou……zuodianxiaomaimai，daochulvxingyixiaba，gengduodeshiqing，yushangdeshihouzaishuole。
zhengxiangzhezheixieshiqing，xuannaodeshengyinyecongwaimiandeyuanzilixiangleqilai，jintianbenshijieqing，tayeshigangcongqianmianguolaibujiu，cishixianglaiyouchulexieshenmeshi，ruciguodebujiu，neizhongshengguolaidiyicijiandaodebinvxiaochanyiluxiaopaoleshanglai，yuanyuandeliandanhongtongtongde：“guye，guye，xiaojiehuilaile，xiaojiehuilaile。”
zijizheigeqizizongshihuihuilai，shiyizaojiuyijingxiangdaodeshiqing，zongbukenengyinweizijizheigezhangfuruzhuiguolai，tajiuzhendetaohunyongbuguijia，zheishitianbangeyuedekongbaiqi，dadiyeshitaweilerangzijikanqingchuxingshideyizhongjinggao。zheiweidaxiaojiexinggeqiangshi，tashimeishenmekebaoyuande，xiaochanguolaijiaota，suihouyejiulaletaxiaqu，laidaocongqiantingdaohouyuandelushang，yuanyuankanjianyiqunrenzouleguolai，weishoudenvzichuanzhehongsepifengdeshenyingzairenqunligewaixianyan，xianglaibianshitale。
cishihuanraozhenvziguolaide，youerfangsanfangdejimingxiongdi，yeyousujiadebinvyuguanshi，weishoudenvzishencaigaotiaoena，guazilian，yitouwuheidezhangfayongshudaibangqi，zhichuidaoyaoji，yibianxiaozheyurenshuohua，yibianjiangdahongdepifengdijipangbiandexiaren，zoudaojinchu，kanjianningyiyuxiaochan，xianshiweiweishanguoleshenshideshenqing，suihou，queshiweiweifuleyishen：“xianggong。”
zheihaibuzhidaoshibushiliangrendediyicijianmian，danneisutanerdeshenqingqueziranzhizhi，fangfoquanmeiyoutazaixinhunneitianzoudiaodeshiqingfasheng，jiuxiangshichenghunduoniandelaofulaoqibanzouleguolai，zirandiwanzhuleningyideshou，suihoucaixiaozhezhuanxiangqitaren：“erge，niyizhixiangyaodebaihupi，tanerzheicikeshiyijingjinizhaodaole，nizaibunengguaiwolee……”
yiweiweide，ningyiraoyouxingzhidikanzheshenbiandenvrenyuzheixierenshuohua，jiangyiqiezuodemianmianjudao，jihuzaisuiyideyancihuayujianjiuzuochulewanmeideanshi，rangtamendouyouzijideshiqingyaozuo，suihoucaiyilianqinsexianghedeyuningyizhuanshen：“xianggong，womenhuiquba。”daizhesanmingbinv，yuningyizouxiangleyuanbendeyuanzi。
zheinvrenzhangdepiaoliang，wanquanshijiangnanshuixiangrouruonvzideqixi，fangcaideyifanxingshi，suiranyeyouzheneizaideqiangshi，danquejiangzheizhongrushujuan，rumeidaibandeqixiwanmeidironghedaoleshuohuayuxingshili，zaichuncuikeguanyuzhuanyedejiaodukanlai，ningyiyebuyoudeyoujifenxinshang，buguodangzheizhongzitaizhenduitaerlai，tajiujuedeyouxiehaoxiaole。
yilushangyoushijijukansiqinnishizebaochizhejulidewenhou，ningyiziranyedandandihuidajiju，yilushanghuidaoyuanzi，meiyouwairenkanshi，neisutanercaizirandifangkaileshou：“xianggongshangshiweiyu，zheijitianhaohaoxiuxi，youshenmeshiqing，fenfuchanerjiuhaole……”
zheigeyuanluoyigongliangdongxiaoloufang，duimianerloushanghaitiezhedahongxizidexinfangdagaishisutanerbenlaideguifang，ningyicongxingguolaibianyizhizhuzailingyidong，congweishangquguoneibian，cishisutanershuowan，youshiyifushen，daizhebinvhuiquzijidefangjian，ningyidaoyeshixiaozhehuilehuishou，suanshigaobie。xinzhongmingbai，weilairuguoyaozhuzaizheili，dagaihenzhangdeyiduanshijian，douhuishizheiyangdegejule。
tinghaode，wobupengni，niyebielaifanwo，ruguonengyizhiqingxian，haibuhuibeizheigejiazuneixiegouxindoujiaodeshiqingqianshejinqu，zijizoubuzoudouwusuoweile。gudaishenghuo，tingyouxian。
lingyibian，sutanerhuidaoleguifang。
zheishiyijiansuanbushangduometeliduxingdefangjian，zhishaoxiangduiyuzhurendexingshiyuxinggelaishuo，zheishiyijianwulunconghezhongjiaodukandouzhengchangwubideshaonvchungui，honghonglvlvdezhuangshi，gezhongxiaoshiwu，chulenvhongshaodian，shuduodian——buguozheixiedongxi，dadiyeshizaizhengchangdefanweizhineide。
jinnianshibasuidexinhunshaonvzaichuangbianzhanleyihuier，jiekailechanzhutoufadeneixiefadai，kanleyihuierduimianloufangshangzuozaineierkanyanhuadenanzi，weiweitanlekouqi，suihoucaiguanshangchuanghu：“xinger，nijinlaiyixia，juaner，niqurangchanerguolai。”
buyihuier，dangchanerjinrufangjianshi，xingerzhengzaimangmangliuliudianzhaoxiaojiedezhishibaifangzheyinweiyaobuzhichengxinfangerbiandongdexiaowujian，sutanerzezhengyongmaojincalian，daitajiangmaojinyikai，xiaochanlianmangzouleguoqu，jieguomaojinfanghuilianpen：“xiaojie。”
“guyezheijitianzenmeyang？”
“ng，guyedeshangshihaole，danshiduihenduoshiqinghaoxiangdouhenmosheng，dafushuokenengshiyinweitoushangshoushang，wangjileyixieshiqingni。”
“忘记了事情？”
“ng，dafushuode。”xiaochandianlediantou，“guyezheijitianyezaidaochuzou，xiaochanranglerengenzheta，tingshuotayebuquzhaoshei，jiuzaichenglichengwaidaochuzoudaochukan，haoxiang……zhendeshiwangjilehenduoshiqingdeyangzi。”
“suitaba，youqitadeshiqingma？”
“guyezheijitianpaobu。”
“跑步？”
“ng，tazaoshangtianbuliangdeshihoujiuchuqu，zaiqinhuaiheneibianmanmanpao，shuoshiduanlianshentini，haiyou，tazaifangjianli，zuoqiguaideshiqing……”xiaochanshuangshouwangqianyituiyisuode，xiaolianmanshiyihuo，“pazaidishang，jiushizheiyangbazijituiqilai，yeshuoshiduanlianshenti，bizijuedehaoqiguai。”
xiangxiangzhezheigedongzuo，zhupusanrenzaifangjianliyilianwenhao，suihousutanercaiyaoleyaotou：“duanlianshenti……suitaba，haiyouma？”
“meiyouqitashile，guyezheijitianyegendalaoye、laoye、dashaoye、ershaoyetamenjianlemian，douhenheqi……ng，guyeduisheidouhenheqi，chule……duile……”
“什么？”
“chaneryebuzhidaoshibushicuojue，guyeganggangxingguolaideneiyitian，congfangjianlizouchulai，yanshenhaoherenni……budui，yebushiheren，jiushihenyou……henyou……”xiaoyahuanyangtouxiangzhexingrongci，“henyouweiyandeyangzi，gendalaoyechabuduo……haoxiangyebuyiyang，danshitajiukanleyiyan，chanerjiuliandongdoubugandongle，keneng……kenengshichanerkancuole……”
xiaoguniangshuohuadeshengyinyuelaiyuexiao，sutanerxianglexiang，suihouxiaoleqilai，dangchuyeyeshuoyaorangningyiruzhuideshihou，taqishiyeguoqukanlezheigerenshenzhipairendiaochalede，yeyezhisuoyixuanzeta，yilaishiyinweishangyidaiyouzhifuweihundeyueding，erlaiyeyinweizheigerenxinggeshizaibuqiang，zijiqingeryijujiunengyazhu，tajialiyipinruxi，suishuoshishusheng，danshumeiduduoshao，shenzhilianyibanshushengdeneizhongguaozhiqidoumeiyou，nayoushenmeweiyankeyanle，dayueshicuojueba，beirendale，gangqilai，yangzibaxiaochanhedaoleeryi。buguo……
huixiangdaogangcaidejianmianyubuduodejijujiaotan，sihuyouyuzhiqiankandaodeneigerenyouxiechuru，zijiguolaiwantadeshou，gentashuohua，haiyiweitahuishouzuwucuojiongpoyihuierni，sheizhidaotajiuyiluyundanfengqingdiguolaile。
“yehao，taxinlidagaishimingbaide，zheiyangjiuxingle，ananfenfende，laoyeyijingdayingle，wokeyizheigeyangzi……jiuzheiyangba。”tatanlekouqi，“dannimenjige，yaoduiguyegongjingyidian，woheguyedeshiqing，nimenbuxuzaiwaimianluangenrenjiaoshegen，bulunruhe，zhiyaomeizuochusunhaisujiadeshiqinglai，tadoushiwodexianggong，zhidaoma？”
youdeshihouhuibajianglaixiangdewubimeihao，danshidaolezuihou，haishiyaorenming，tebieshinvren，youqiruci。tayijingbiyibandenvrenhaohenduole，zheijianshiqingshang，zanshijiu……
认命吧……