zheigeshijie，chulebicixinlirendingdeweiyi，zhendemeiyousheizhenzhengyiyidezaiyiguosheima？
huoxuneiyemeigerenxinliderendingbutong，erzaochengdecuojue！
摘自任晓城日记
wanzixijian，cengjunhaoshoudaoleyifennimingdexinjian，neishiyizhangxiaoxiaodezhitiao，shangmianxiezhe：renxiaochenghewujinhongdouzaichani，nizuijinxiaoxinxie。
qie！cengjunhaozhijiemieshi，ranhoubazhitiaorouchengyituan，fangzaikoudaili，zhunbeixiakezhihourengdaolajitong。
zhiyuzhitiaoshisheisongde，tabuyongcai，yezhidao。
buguoxiangxiang，cengjunyineijiahuozheixietianzheixienianbushimangzhehefengyaoneixiaopaoniugaodixialianqingma？zenmehaiyoukongguantadeshi？
kanlaizheijiahuoyehetayiyangyeyouzheyixiebukegaorendemimini？suiranbuzhishicongheshikaishide。
wanzixiuxiakezhihou，cengjunhaobingmeiyouanzhaocengjunyishuodeneiyangxianggeguaixueshengyibanhuidaosusheshuijue，ershixianyibuhuidaosushelou，huidaoneigechenlongyingzuiyoukenengjingguodeloutikoudengzhe。
tademudeyehenjiandan，jiushizheijitianlai，zheihuoyizhiyitongyangdemudebutongdefangshisaoraotatangmeicengqingyuedeshiqing，tayidingyaozhaozheihuojigeshuofa。
yinweitajidehenqingchu，shenqifengqindeshiqingbushizaisannianqian，tamenhaishichuzhongshengdeshihoujiejuelema？zenmezheihuomeiwanmeile？ganqingzheijiahuowanletayidao？haishishuo……
congtoudaoweidoushizaiwanershenmeyinmouma？
cengjunhaolengxiao，kanlaitayeshijizheijiahuoyidiantebiedehuiyingle。
shijianbujinbumandiguoqu，cengjunhaozailoutikoudenglehaoyihuier，yanqiancaichuxianchenlongyingdeshenfen，zhishizheihuomanyouyoudizouzhe，haikeyidilengxiaoyixia，zhijiejilecengjunhaoyigemieshi，ranhouzhuanguoshenqu，xiangshigenbenmeikandaotayiban，jixuwangsushedefangxiangzouqu。
“……”kanzhechenlongyingneibukeyishideshenying，cengjunhaobujinzhoulezhoumei，xinlijiubushigeziwei，kanyangzizheijiahuoshilaozaojiuzhidaotahuilaizheilidengzhe，yushicaihuizheibanzhuangmozuoyang？
kanlaizheihuoyegentayiyang，shenbianyeyouzhegezhonggeyangdeyanxian，caibatadexingzongsihaobuchadizhangwozhe。
“chenlongying，nisanfanwucizhaowomeimeimafan，nandaobuyinggaijiwoyigeshuofama？”cengjunhaozhijieledangdiwendao。
“yuniwuguan！”chenlongyingyijiutouyebuhui，lenglengdihuileyiju。
“……”cengjunhaoyusai，chenlongyingzheihuodelianpijiuzhendeyizhidouzheimehoudema？gangrenshineihuierzheiyang，xianzaihaishizheiyang，ganqingjiushiyizhisipilailianjiuduileshiba！
buguo，cengjunhaokemeiyouneigexianqingyazhi，yemeiyouneigeshijianzaizheizhuomozheixieluanqibazaodeshi，yushitongyanglengshengshuodao：“shihuashuoleba，nimeichenyouyuanxiuliandexinfaquedeconglaidoubushishuilingzhu，nidexinfaquedeyebushifengqin，huozheshuo，nizhaowomeimeimafan，conglaidoubushiyinweizheixieshenqifaqide，nishiweilexieqiongtianduiba！”
xiejiashizenyangdecunzai，huozheshuozheixiejiaduichenlongyingyiweizheshenme，buyongcai，cengjunhaoyeduoduoshaoshaozhidaoyixie，zhishizheilimiandaodiyinzangleshenme，yougentademeimeicengqingyueyijishenqifengqinyouyoushenmejutideguanlian，tayezhizhidaogedagai，bijingchenlongyingzheihuoshizhendeyinzangtaishenle。
suoyicike，taxiangyaocongzheihuozuilitaochushenmezhongyaodeshiqing，jianzhijiushichirenshuomeng，buguotakebingmeiyoudasuanbaxinsifangzaizheishangmian，yinweitaxiangyaozuo……
jiushizuzhizheihuoliyongmeimeiquzuotabuyuanyizuodeshiqing，jincieryi。
xiangshibeichuodaotongchu，chenlongyingbuzijueditingzhujiaobu，ranhouqueshibuyiweiyidiwendao：“suoyi，nidaodixiangshuoshenme？”
cengjunhaoxiangzuoshenme？chenlongyinglengxiao，bujiushigemeikongme？jinguanshijishangtayeshi。
suirantayezhidaozaitaduicengqingyuezuoleshenmejianbudeguangdeshiqingzhihou，cengjunhaokendingyebidinghuirangtafuchuxiangyingdedaijia，bijingzheihuozhenzhengyiyisuanqilai，kebitahaiyaoyinchenduoshaobei，danshitabukenengjiucijizheihuorenhejihuibale。
zhiyuxianzaihaibuxing，qimadetawanchengtazhenzhengdejihuacaixing。
yinwei，ruguobushizheihuoxingceng，taqishimeiyouneigebiyaozaiyizheihuobushima？
“ruguobujieyi，woyekeyiquzhaoyitangxieqiongyi，huozhexieqiongyu，dangranhaiyounidemeimeichenyouyuan，shizaishizaibuxing，haiyounajie！ng，haiyouliangxinwen！”cengjunhaobieyouyongxindishuodao。
“neiniquba！”chenlongyingjixulengxiao，“buguo，wokeshixiantixingni，nizuihaokuaidian，burandengwobanihetanqingweizhenzhengdeguanxisanbochuqu，nikejiulaibujile！haiyou，wozuijinhenmang，suoyi，niyazuihaobieyoushimeishidoulaiduwo，baibai！”
shuowan，yemeidengcengjunhaofanyingguolai，chenlongyingjiuzhijiezaiyuandixiaoshi……
“……”turuqilaideyimurangcengjunhaomudengkoudai，zheijiahuoshenmebufa，budui，shixianfa，yebudui……zheilimiansihumeiyounengliangbodong，youde……tajingrankanbuchulai，yeyewufaganying，haiyouzheihuodeshili……
cengjunhaozhijiemengle，buguo，shunjianzhihou，tabianfanyingleguolai，yuanlaizheihuozhidaotahetanqingweineidianshi？
suiranyishijiantayebingbushihenqueding，chenlongyingshuodeshizhenshijia，yihuozhezheishibianxiangdezhizhidaopimao，ranhoujiukaishiweixiedeqianzou，danjibianruci，tayehaishibuganmaoxian。
suiranyikaishitashidasuangenzheijiahuolaigeyusiwangpo，liyongxiejia，shenzhiyuhexiewenna，haiyouchenyouyuanzhijiedezhongzhong，zhichuozheihuotongchu，kezheijieguo……zheisuanshi……
duibizhixia，haishitakuileba？
xiangxiang，yexushishihouchujuezhaole！
lengxiaoyishenghou，tabianzhuanguoshen，ranhouxiangzijidesushezouqu。
tongyishijian，duozailoutizhuantaichulingyibian，kaozheqiangbideliumingchenqueshibachenlongyinghecengjunhaodehuayiwuyishidijilexialai。
suiranzheilianghuoshuodeyidaduiliumingchencongmeitingguodenvshengdemingzi，dantahaishijuedeyinggaixianjixialai，ranhouzaigaosurenxiaocheng，meizhunzheihuorenshini？genghekuangzheiyesuanshirenwudeyibufen。
zhishichenlongyingliangrenduihuali，gengrangtajingyadehaishi，zheijiahuozuihoushuodeneiju，cengjunhaohetanqingweiyougoujie？
ganqingzhendeshipkbang？kanlaicengjunhaozheihuoyinzangdibitahaiyaoshenni？
kanlaizheishierdehaohaozhenzhuo。
yinweizheishiyidanbeizhengshi，pkbangdemimijiuhuiquanbupuguang。